abortion letter from baby to mommy

We do not have the money, the room, were too old, etc. Wow I needed to read this. Anything further than 6 weeks and I could not have possibly stood firm on my decision. I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. Sophie R. Pregnancy Poems I know this choice that I am making will be the hardest but I know in the long run, I will be saving my child from being born into a dysfunction environment I at least owe my child that. I hoped the pain and loss in my gut would fade away over time but it hasnt. Im so fearful I dont know what to do. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. If you are in the position to do so, please consider becoming a SMBC (single mom by choice). I want to be respectful and listen to people who have been through the same as me. Iv never felt worse in my whole life. Im playing the song you listened to sobbing. I cant quit my job, but I cant afford 2 in daycare either. I am experiencing so much guilt and pain going through this again, especially since I am 32 years old with no children and two months away from completing my masters. I had one 7 years ago and my one and only. April S., New Jersey. I lost my baby in August. My heart would of gotten excited despite starting all over again. Before the devil knew me, God knew me, he created everything. About Press Copyright Contact us Creators Advertise Developers Terms Privacy Policy & Safety How YouTube works Test new features Press Copyright Contact us Creators . I will terminate in 3 days. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. .. thank you so much for this. I dont know what to do but I see no way out of this. The copyright of all poems on this website belong to the individual authors. No matter how he was conceived this baby wasnt a mistake not to me. I know God and His angels will help. Dear Reverend (name), It is not without much time and thought that I have decided to address myself to you. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . One day, maybe. We wouldnt. Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. Mark Ruffalo spoke out on reproductive rights this weekend, penning a letter in support of a woman's right to choose. A few days later I had a surgical abortion. I knew that if I went in for an ultrasound and saw features on that monitor.. there was no way I could go through with it. It haunts me every day . This would have delayed everything. (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) I paced the bathroom, test in hand, pants still around my ankles, repeating curses to myself like a meditative mantra. How are you coping? Ive never allowed a man to make me feel like this. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. I know you made the right decision for you! There are so many things I am looking forward to, and I can't wait to be held in your arms and taught by the very best mama I can think of! Im at a loss. We agonized over what to do and spent a week making our decision which whilst incredibly painful was ultimately the right one for us. It is a very heartbreak-ling sad feeling. We cant afford this baby. God bless you. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. I was in a a similar position. You were my everything. Thank you so much for this. Im 9 weeks pregnant. He abandoned me and hung up on me when I told him a few weeks ago. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. Abortion - Pro Life - Letter From an Unborn Child Letter from an unborn child As falling rain is the tears of God for the blood spilled of the unborn children that covers the hands of the human race. I'll sing loudly in my first school concert I do wish I wouldve had more support during this time, mainly because my husband shut down due to his circumstances, but it has gone to show me just how strong I am and how much stronger I can be. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. Baby. My boy ( yes, For some crazy reason at that time, I wanted to find out the sex of the baby through the blood test they do to check chromosomes and it was a boy) would be 7 years old. Remorse Is Forever By Featured Shared Story I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. Hi Sarah, Ive just had a baby (two weeks ago) at 40, I do feel age is but a number. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. I long to feel the grass tickle my toes Sending love your way. Hello Mommy, this is me, your baby- Even if i dont want an abortion, i have to do it for my future and my boyfriends future. I begged mi amor to reconsider, I proposed to her 3 days before she had the abortion. but something I think people needed to read. I dont have a strong conviction I can do this. When your raised in foster care it is because there is virtually no one else willing or able to care for you as a child. Everything in life was so uncertain and I had nothing and had no idea where I was going and a part of me felt pressure from everyone else. Im 28 now and I dont see having a kids in the future maybe because I cant forgive myself with what Ive done. Nine nights later, the night before the appointment, I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. I have a 13 year old with my boyfriend and we live together. Tears and snot are running down my face as I write this, I have 2 beautiful little girls after this and it hasnt got any better. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. There might be days when I'm a bit naughty Even though I knew none of the other ladies who were there for the same reason I felt like I was not going through it alone. I feel like the world makes us feel weak, like we cant handle both our dreams and a child that will love us and need us more than we could understand. Well, I made it out alive. I am thinking of you xx. I have an 11 month old and a 13 year old from my husbands first marriage. But i wanted to say thank-you because your post was something i came across before i went in for my abortion and it brought me to tears. Im in exactly the same situation as you and just dont know what to do. I didnt know you, but I loved you. ? I want a burrito. What if I was never able to get back on track with school and start my career? I just went through having to make a decision as well. I am 6 weeks and already feeling flutters and I feel like I will never get past be this. I found out I was pregnant today after being a few days late on my period Im lost!!!!! Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. Please don't cry, remember that I love you and I'll be waiting for you with open arms. I dont know what to do. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. Am I selfish for bringing our baby into this world? I always thought she would come back to me somehow but only in my sleeping dreams and waking thoughts. Im 29 and each partner Ive been with had children outside of me after we ended our relationship. I am sad because I already have a connection with the child in my belly and I cry everyday thinking about the fact that I wont be able to hold him or her or see their face. "I didn't touch you, but I felt you. From a mother's letter to her aborted child: "It's been a decade and still my blood runs cold and I catch my breath whenever I hear the word " abortion." Space there is an emptiness inside of me that can never be filled, a chill that has never quite been warned, a grief that will Continue reading "A Mother's Letter to Her Aborted Baby" Im giving up the pregnancy to focus on my toddler & also to avoid a life of suffering for the new baby You know in your heart what the right decision is. According to The Mirror, a mother explained how she would be relieved if her third child died in their sleep because she was too afraid to get an abortion when she was pregnant as the pregnancy . I have never cried to hard in my life. Even my close friends dont know this time. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. When I had my daughter, he unfortunately couldnt be there and I raised her on my own until she was about 6 years old. I am a mom. I really did not want to get rid of my baby and I knew that in my heart, but somehow logic (or what I thought sounded logical) overpowered my emotions. It breaks my heart everyday because I didnt really want to get rid of my baby I loved her ( felt she was a girl ), had a name picked out, went to multiple scans ( still got pictures ) .Today is a year since my surgery and I grieve her everyday I regret it . SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. American liberals are debating the merits of "after birth abortion." On 29 July 2015, the unreliable web site Conservative Post published an article titled "Liberals Debate . Ive been her best friend for 6 years and I never saw this coming. I remember my boyfriend and I sitting in the car one evening and wondering aloud what it would look like- would it have my eyes, or his nose? I had one almost six years ago and I still cry about it. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? I like the word dad because Father is in Heaven. Im mad as hell (still) that we took steps responsible steps steps that have to be repeated! I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. And I havent heard from him since. My boyfriend is full of regret and wishes he wouldnt have said hurtful things. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. I got an abortion 6 days ago. Im working on it though. How you still suffer over the very thought of it. I wish I could talk to someone who gets it so much :,( also cate I hope your ok and you and your husband sorted things out. I wanted it to be beautiful and for us both to be so happy but the day I told him his first words were you have to abort it the way his face was was like I ripped his whole life from under him it wasnt a face of being scared to be a dad it was a face that only a person who had a secret would make I cant understand him because we clearly had a lot of sex that was unprotected how could we not feel like this would happen eventually I just dont understand at all he knows that I love him so he started to say things like Im selfish for wanting to bring a child into this world he doesnt want he grew up without a dad and I wouldnt understand, he said if I have this baby it will pull us further apart and he will never be able to look at me he said I was a liar because I have told him Im down for him and thats not being down for him. Its going to be okay. Today its been 1 year since the surgery. You have a child. Ang, your situation is same as mine. I dont want to undo my choice, but its still so hard to live with sometimes. ????? Published Jul 29, 2015. Then I panicked more I hadnt even thought about how I had a choice to make, and how this didnt only involve me, it involved your dad, too. Yes, Im still pregnant. Hi. I just recently started a new job and I want to progress. Help us continue to provide this imperative service. Your baby. I stood up, pants around my ankles, and lost my footing, grasping onto the shelf that held toilet paper and Febreze. Everyone at work keeps getting pregnant and every time I hurt. Be strong for me hold on to me We dont regret it. 2. If you do it, please remember you are not alone and it does get better And remember (if you believe) God will forgive you. Im 23 years old. He comes at all times of the day we talk all day we talk on the phone all the time I would have never thought. This brings me to a previous pregnancy right before this in which I unfortunately miscarried. We chose 3 yrs ago to decide to be Childfree. Now I m just waiting for my appointment but I feel so shit , down and gonna cry all the time. All the best xxxx, Hi Owami, your message speaks to me because I was completely alone too. This time is different. Please keep your baby. Xx, I found out I was pregnant on this day a year ago and like you I was scared. Im balling my eyes out googling help topics because I miss her so much. Anyway, Im still mourning and will never forget till the day I die. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. I made the wrong choice. I had my abortion at 5 weeks and 1 day i knew it was the right thing to do but i did want my baby I was scared but overwhelmed i didnt want to go thru what i did i remember a time i was for abortion but until u have to go thru one u have no right to talk i too also got my sonogram which was supposed to be a joyful experience it still was because wow it was beautiful .i love and hope to see my baby one day .. Every day I feel like a monster. I dont want an abortion but that seems to be the best option. I did not know why you were crying at the time. My periods had always been very irregular and I had taken over the counter tests when it got late but I got negatives the both times so I was certain I wasnt pregnant. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. This moved me. I dont know what to do at all. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. She and her boyfriend are claiming that, if they could go back in time, they would have kept it. Every night I went to bed, I cried. This is not a fictional story. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. I prayed for him but I let fear control my decision. Would the Republican's bill force that teenager to. What makes us experts in Online Poetry Publishing? I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. Mom, please listenplease. I was 5 weeks when I decided to let my baby go, I miss her everyday . They told me to think about what I wanted to do and that theyd support me regardless of my choice. Her due date has passed now. Thats the last burrito hell ever order without any major care in the world, I think to myself. Now, faced with having one in our early 40s is terrifying. And I dont feel well. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. She tells me, You dont have to do this. Common Mistakes: the word "i" should be capitalized, "u" is not a word, and "im" is spelled "I'm" or "I am". I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. Dr. Jennifer . I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. Im so sorry your feeling this way. I have so much pain and hurt in my heart. Good luck on your decision if you havent made up your mind yet but no matter what, I am sure it will be the best decision for you. For some reason, Im not moved, but still, I dont want to lose you. He is also younger than me and nowhere near ready for a child and even moving in with me makes him scared. Im up and down about it all. I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. Filed Under: Archive, Blog, Let's Talk Abortion, I had an abortion 10 years ago and I still regret my decision because I was living in the country with out a permit at the time I was considered an iligal imegrant and I was afraid what was gone happen to my baby . I was 36 yrs old, with a 3.5 yrs old girl who was born premature at week 28. We talked all weekend, tried finding ways to make it work but we both knew it wasnt the time because of so many factors, the big ones being my health and finances. Ive often wished we met sooner so we could of had a child together. Im 9 weeks, and he pretends like it does not exist. I just wanted to let you know that the decision I made was very painful and still hurts at times but that it does get easier especially if you know you made it for the right reasons. Family assumes that I just dont want to have them, when in reality, now, is that no one will have one with me. Constant regret and pain . Im 16 and I knew there was no way I could support a child. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. Took the first pill today to block the hormones. It always feels unfair that the times I get pregnant, I had to terminate the pregnancy. I told him to not come at all and I would be fine. Ill be 43 when the child would be born. Im seeking a medium to try reach her. My name is John, and. I dont regret it but I do have feeling about what if. I was 5 weeks and didnt know it. Hi there reading this story made me cry so bad Let me tell you some things about me. Your dad looks at me and then the tests before putting them down, one in my lap and the other in his, but it falls in between us how symbolic. Abortion pills are the most common way to end a pregnancy in the United States and have become a focus for anti-abortion groups and Republican officials seeking to block access in their states. I would give anything to have my baby back. Sometimes I think about taking my life and then I think about my daughter . Now that he had finally accepted it, it officially became reality. That's exactly what I need to do for you. There arent any protesters out that day and Im grateful. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. I dont want to do this, but the dad is not ready and I am not able to care for a child alone at this point. That is my story which I have never shared. I'll make you breakfast on Mother's Day After I had the abortion I desperately wanted that the doctor made a mistake and month after month I wished to be pregnant. Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? I was able to get another teaching job back in our home state, and have been teaching for years. Seven months latter she wrote this letter to a priest. Its almost the same situation. I cry also. All the best. Im praying that I get an opportunity to meet her one day .. look into her sweet little face and just hold her and never ever let her go. no one is on my side. I didnt touch you, but I felt you. I have seen many of my patients go through something similar and it is never easy. I, well, thankfully few days ago I conceived in your tummy. I felt like death every day sometimes unable to stay out longer than 2 hours outside. A letter to my unborn child - you deserve an explanation We named you to help us grieve for you By anonymous on 19/11/2013 surgical abortion abortion 18 weeks Firstly I need to tell you that me & your daddy have decided to name you. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. She is 23, theyve been together 6 months and shes not ready for such a huge commitment. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. This is a safe place for mothers, fathers, grandparents, and other family members to remember children who were lost to abortion. She / he would have been 9 years old. He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. I am with someone now and he is lovely. He tosses me the plastic bag with my burrito and chips (along with several containers of salsa that I didnt ask for but he knows me well enough to bring them anyway), and asks, with little emotion, Whats wrong? I sit down and ask him to sit too, and he does so, across the room. Only a few days have gone by since I was conceived and I am now growing in your tummy. i struggle deeply with wanting to try again. I'm growing a little bit every day, I'll be able to hear the sound of your voice. I had severe preeclampsia and had to do c-section at week 28. I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. They were in no particular order: I broke up with your dad and essentially kicked him out of our apartment. Whitney. I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. A boy or a girl? Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. I so badly want another baby, but I got pregnant by the wrong man at the wrong time. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. It was my first pregnancy, my husband is deployed, and I just happened to be going through this process physically alone (minus a couple friends there for support). Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. It took me months to get back to normal, probably because of the hormones, and I got severely depressed and anxious. Even with his support, the support of my mother, sister, and friends.. On the day of the appointment I cried so much I couldnt get myself to do it and as time went on I decided to keep him. ? My parents were very poor but devout Catholics, so abortion was not a legal or moral option for them for any. I cant be a single baby mama, with two baby daddies. Anger boils in me now and again over it. I ask for the pill and she hands me it along with a cup of water. I cant share any of this with him. Im so torn and feel so alone. All I wanted to do was feel your skin and smell you. She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. Truth is, I have no job, I am back in school with one child taken care of by my parents, I cannot bring another right now and of I did this new opportunity would go away. It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. Carroll's mom was about the same age as . If your willing to share that is. I have seen God cry when rocking little babies in His big loving arms. Hi, my story is very quite similar to yours. Raising her was not easy on my own but he convinced me to move back so he can have his family. I have a toddler and Im pregnant again. All the best to you <3. Emotionally I suffered very badly for the first 2 weeks after the abortion (even to the point of being suicidal at times which is massively out of character for me) I was warned that pregnacy hormones around this time are at their strongest and to expect extreme moods. Pro . I have been scouring the internet for stories because keep either seeing people who wanted to do it and doesnt regret it, or people who regret it all together. I am currently 5 months pregnant with my child. I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. I didnt want to do this. More than I want good . Dimplez, The Gift Of Life By Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. Hi. We had to double down on our declaration our family was complete. I was so excited when I found out because I didnt even know if could have kids. I hope that there wasnt a little soul in there yet . A week before the abortion he changed his mind and got attached to the baby. I know Im going to love him when he is here but in the time being I am just purely struggling. I was heavily against murder but I know its for the best. I recently just had my second abortion in 9 months . We want to give our child the best life possible, and now is not that time. Did you spell check your submission? I pray one day my baby will cone back to me. After decades of keeping her . Im not financially free..and my boyfriend said he will literally kill me if I decide to keep the baby. Take care. I dont know how I got to this point of being so mistreated and lost. A month ago i started feeling sick and tired. But I dont want an abortion.. its heartbreaking ? All these fears at once can seem unsurmountable, but when you help her chip away at each, she'll begin to feel more confident. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged.

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